MY BLACK HOLE
Written by Captain Mary on Wednesday, July 02, 2008My answer to the question of the month. It was hard to figure out what it was at first but a good question indeed. Many years ago I was home alone in the country, when 3 young men broke through my front door, quickly grabbed me and drugged me, they put me in the bedroom and began rummaging around my house. I was out of it for awhile, but still able to think. My husband had a gun in the house but it was in pieces, the barrel, the butt and the bullet were in different areas of the room. We did that because we had children in the house. I quietly put the gun together, not knowing if I was doing it correctly. The sounds of the 3 men were getting closer, perhaps they were coming for me now. They were now at the doorway with a gun pointed at me, I stood up quickly held my gun at them and told them that I would kill at least two of them before they could kill me, because I had a bigger gun and a clip with 23 bullets in it. There was real shock on their faces, because they knew I meant it, they turned around and ran.
I realized that I could have killed them, thats my Black Hole, it is a part of me that I never want to surface again. Its something inside of me that could take the life of another if provoked. I hope that no one ever has to experience that feeling. I was lucky indeed that no one lost their life that day, including me. By the way the gun was put together correctly, I went outside after they had gone and fired it, it worked perfectly. These men almost lost their lives for a $20 bill and a pearl necklace. Life has to be worth more than that. Do you know what you would do if that happened to you?
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3 comments: Responses to “ MY BLACK HOLE ”
By MeatWad on July 3, 2008 at 12:50 AM
Wow, I would normally say I would have emptied the clip or something macho like that but who knows until you are in the situation? You saved their lives and your own..you are a stronger and better person than I.
By The Nemesing One on July 3, 2008 at 9:25 AM
Captain Mary, I salute you. This is absolutely fantastic. You are a true hero. A real hero does what she has to do when she has to do it, but rarely relishes it. Meatwad is correct in that bravado is the norm, but reality often shows the person huddled in a corner crying. You rock!
By Anonymous on July 3, 2008 at 12:05 PM
I too know that I could kill if required. It isn't a particular black hole in myself, just a knowledge that I have the ability to do what it takes.
I don't think I'd have emptied the clip like meatwad, but they'd have some debilitating injuries since I spent LOTS of time at the gun range. I'm good with short range (40 feet or so) to the point where to pass time we'd do smiley faces on the targets using .22's.
In fact I keep two weapons available here. One a .22 pistol, the other a Mossberg AT500 pump shotgun. The shotgun is my favorite since just the sound of chambering a round is enough to make most people shit their pants.